Why is this so hard?

Of course, if it were easy, everyone would do it. It's the hard that makes it great.

I have had a super intense sinus infection for about 10 days. Today I feel like I'm starting to get better. We'll see. If I'm not close to 100% by Wednesday, I'm going to get some antibiotics, because this is just miserable. Ugh.

I've learned that when I'm sick, I eat like crap, which undoubtedly extends my period of sickness. (As much as the "organic" "clean" "whole" food movement irks me, I do believe it. Shh...I totally buy into the idea that food can be our greatest medicine or poison. Do I act on that idea? That's another topic and one that I'll probably need some therapy to reconcile, for real.)

Anyway, eating bad while sickness. I think I do this for two reasons. One to self-medicate, and the other is that bad food is just easier to grab and prepare. I mean, if I have no energy and my whole face is pounding with sinus pain, am I going to broil and weigh talapia, then wash, chop and weigh vegetables to make a very nutritious salad, or am I going to microwave a burrito from the freezer? Duh. Healthy eating is work and it takes preparation.

But, today, I am back on the train. I have to be. I just looked at the schedule in my post below, and while I will most likely be a pound or two heavier than I'm supposed to be this Wednesday, I won't be too far off. I feel that my goals are still completely attainable. I also noticed that on February 19th, which is the exact day that Blake turns 6 months old, I am scheduled to be at my pre-pregnancy weight, which is AMAZING. Getting to that weight after Jameson was born took me a full year.

I'm ready to go. I'm envisioning myself at 135 pounds, just in time for Spring, full of energy and proud of the hard work that went in to achieving my goal.