mark went up to farmington to play basketball with his dad and then stayed over up there because he had court in ogden this morning. last night, i ate everything in sight.
well it started with the costco sushi i ate in the afternoon, followed by my normal dinner, and then left to myself with jameson in bed and mark gone, i ate off and on all night. i wasn't even hungry! AND i'm trying to diet, obviously.
ugh.
new rule: if you eat it, you have to write it down.
i started a google doc for my food diary. i'm calling yesterday a learning day and moving on today.
Figured out why I did this. I was mad to be tied to the house. Before baby, I would go and do whatever I wanted. With him down for the night, I was locked in and it made me mad. I feel bad for feeling this way, which is probably why it was so hard for me to discover/admit my feelings. I was also jealous of my husband for being able to go visit his parents AND do one of his favorite things (basketball) while I was hope all by myself. Again, didn't admit this because I feel guilty. But if I am going to be successful, I've got to feel all my feelings. I can't progress until I do. It feels good to be honest about that, even to myself.
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